I am where I need to be!!

Ever experience something that you feel is just going to tear you down?  Ever have the feeling that the each day is just not going to be the same anymore?  Ever have the feeling that you might not survive because you don't feel like you have the strength to?

I have.

I have been at these moments far too often in my life.  I have felt at my weakest. Broken and torn.   I have felt that I might not be able to care for my children, do the things I love, and be the person and live the life that I know.

The best news is that so far to date...I have survived.  I have actually thrived in these moments.  For it has been in these moments, days, weeks, months, and even years that I have seen the greatness of my God.  I have seen how he can turn a women who is weak, torn and scared and show me (physically) the love and strength that he can give to me.  Even better that I can use this blog and try and describe how God is using our family to spread his glory.

I had the pleasure of meeting a new friend at Church this morning who came up to me and thanked me for this blog.  I can't even begin to express how much this touched me.  For me, this blog started out as a document of our life so that I wouldn't forget these special moments.  It then turned into a journal of days and emotions of the trials that we faced.  Now it a blessing to me.  A blessing that others would allow me to enter into their days and that they would read the words that I have to write.  For that I'm grateful and honored.  I'm grateful that people read this blog, they think of us...and that you pray.  Please know I am praying for you!  I'm praying that you might see God in your life the way that I've been blessed by seeing.  What may seem like an endless, hopeless situation (twins born at 24 weeks 6 days...a 5 month old who now has a trache)....can turn into the greatest miracle that you can't even begin to define.  Blessings come in many shapes, sizes.  You just need to open your eyes and take a look. Who knows maybe that little boy/girl looking up at you smiling or whispering "I love you." at night is YOUR miracle.  Treasure it.  Praise the one that  gave it to you and don't ever take your miracles for granted!

God Bless you!