Upside down

We are under a month until baby girl arrives.  AND I feel like I'm both prepared and not prepared for how our lives will turn upside down (in a good way).  In some cases I am so excited to meet her, snuggle her and jump right back into having a baby.  Then there are days that the thought of this terrifies me to my very core.  Am I ready to be up all night with a crying baby?  Am I ready to change diapers all day/night?  Am I ready to have a baby attached to my side pretty much non stop?

What I do know for sure is that I feel blessed.  Blessed that I've been given the opportunity to get pregnant on my own, carry this baby the past 33 weeks ... and hope to last 4+ more weeks.  I am blessed that my kids are so beyond excited to have a sister and can't wait to help out.  I'm so beyond thrilled that Nick can't wait to jump in and do this again.  Having a Daddy like he is to the kids changes everything!

I also know my mood swings are in full swing.

I can't find a comfortable position at night.

Baby girl LOVES to kick her mommy at all hours of the night.

I have little to no lap left to snuggle my 8 year olds anymore (I can't tell if this is because they are huge or I'm huge).

I get full almost instantly when eating... and I'm hungry again in an hour.

My fingers and feet can blow up if I don't make time to sit and rest.

My part time job is going to the bathroom.