Tuesday, March 19, 2013


We found out yesterday that one of Birks’ favorite in home nurses passed away. We aren’t quite sure of the details around her death, but just know that around 11AM yesterday she went to be with Jesus. It is so sad for us on a few different levels. One, we never made it a point to get to Indianola and see her again after she moved onto another family and we lost our nursing care. We still have her luggage that she loaned us for a trip a few years ago, and we’re sad for her family! She leaves a daughter who she was very close to and an adorable grandson who had stolen her heart!

Marcia was such a blessing to our family. When we had to keep our family in total seclusion to prepare for surgery she was there to help. She would help us take care of both kids so that we could avoid germs. She loved Birk. She loved Addy too. She was so genuine and caring and truly was in the right line of work. The irony of this situation is that I didn’t want Marcia in our house. When our nurse Nicole got married and moved to Nebraska we were crushed. We were so afraid of who we were going to get in our home. I know God had a hand in that decision. We went from one wonderful nurse to another wonderful nurse whom we also loved very much. I used to love to come home and find Birk sitting at the kitchen table with Marcia while she was charting and he was wearing her reading glasses (upside down) coloring on some charting papers that Marcia would give to him! He just wanted to be near her! Marcia would also play baseball for HOURS on weekdays. I’d get home and she would tell me how her arm actually hurt from catching and throwing the ball so much!

Yesterday I posted something on facebook about how I told Birk that Marcia had gone to Heaven. His reaction is perfect for this type of situation. I wish we all could remember this when we lose someone we love. It’s ok to be sad and grieve, but in the end…. Look what is given to that person. How can we be sad that she is living with her King!

Rest in Peace Marcia Taber. We love you very much!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

I stole this picture

I am "friends" with Shawn Johnson on Instagram and saw that she had taken this picture and posted it and I have to admit, I couldn't stop looking at it.  It just spoke so deeply to me.  Lent is always a time of intense reflection for me. Sometimes the reflection turns into sadness.  Why don't I make good choices all the time?  Why don't I stand up for what I believe at all times?  Do I live out Jesus' love everyday, with everyone I encounter?

Do I choose the right way, the one way, the ONLY way?

Sunday, March 3, 2013

I miss him....

I realize I likely have a post like this every few months.  I'm sorry about that.

However, tonight, on the eve of my birthday I'm sitting here with the remote in hand, access to the laptop, a delicious glass of wine and my favorite blanket...The one my mom made for me (and my sisters) made for us out of my dad's clothes.  This is one of my favorite blankets to snuggle up with.  I know it sounds weird, but in some ways I feel like it smells like him.   The year that my dad died ... 2010... I received one of the greatest birthday gifts of all time.  On my birthday we were driving to dinner with the twins in the back and my dad called me from his nursing home.  You see, I came from a family who NEVER said "I love you!"  On March 4th, 2010 my dad called me and wished me a happy birthday and said those words that I longed to hear for so many years.  I remember looking over at Nick, who heard me say them back to him and just had tears in my eyes.  I feel like in a way he knew.  He knew he was going to be with Jesus and just wanted me to know how much he loved me.  The thing is, that I wish I would have said it more times than I did.  I wish I would have told him "I LOVE YOU" as often as I could.  Because I did.  I loved him beyond words.  I love my entire family beyond words.

I sure hope my Dad is able to have a nice drink in Heaven to help me ring in 32 years of life....  :-)